Three Weeks Gone

I hate goodbyes, I don't get why people say them.

I'm an awful flyer. I hate planes, turbulence, flying, the whole lot.

I'm scared to be away from home. I'm scared to be away from Bella. I'm scared.

I'm nervous I won't hear from people. I'm nervous something will go wrong.

I know I'll love it as soon as I'm gone.

I'm just scared.

I'm going to miss everyone so much, and it scares me.

I'm worried I'll get in a fight with Tar, and I'll be lonely.

But, I'll be back in three weeks... right?

Nothing will go wrong. I'll see everyone in three weeks.

I hope... nothing goes wrong.

I love my family, I'll miss you all.

Take care bloggers.

I'll try and email some more blogs now and then.

-Eggy Mayers, wanna be writer.

Rere Frog

You may have noticed on the right on my blog is my lovely frog. 

As slow and retarded as he is, he is my pride and joy and I love him so very much.

But other than 'rere frog' he doesn't have a name. =(

Let's tell you a bit about him though! 

He was born less than a month ago.

He eats flies that even you can feed him by clicking around the place.

He's slow.

And dopey.

He's loved. 

I swear to God, I see that frog everyday and he makes me smile every time.

I'm going to miss him so much these next three weeks! 

I hope he takes care of himself.

I love him so terribly much that I even got a tattoo at the zoo after him. *Blush*

I love you little internet, robotic, retarded, cute blog frog.

-Eggy Mayers, wanna be writer.

See you in August!

Tomorrow, I leave for Canada!

So no reading blogs, few posting blogs. Might get to it by email from my phone. 

But I don't know. =P

I will miss this blog!

Have a nice summer everyone!

-Eggy Mayers, wanna be writer.

Sigh =P

I suppose disappointment isn't something you can escape. 

People will always be disappointed in me, you, themselves. Perhaps people just like the feeling of being disappointed. Perhaps we're suppressing our disappointment in the world into small details of a person.

I don't know, maybe it's just deserved disappointment.

Today I found out I'm allergic to wheat. Not only that, but apparently I care too much. I need to not care about others and only care about myself? Is that really the way this world is meant to work?

Apparently my 'mother like nature' makes me take on the bad feelings of the person being persecuted. Me being involved or just watching. 

I've been told that Yoga provides a way to learn to cope with caring too much.

Did no one think that I like being able to care so much? 

I suppose not.

I'm stressed. According to my tongue. I have a red ended tongue which is meant to symbol stress. 

Well who the hell isn't stressed? (Because let's find them and tell them they're house is about to blow up.)

I dunno'. Today just hasn't been a great day.

I suppose this post hasn't helped your day either.

Well here's something that may/may not cheer you up.

Made me laugh. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpojZ0COU3Y

Like holy smoke, who does that?!

-Eggy Mayers, wanna be writer.

Catching you all up

Here's a small/big/not sure yet catch up.

So I was in hospital. I had my appendix out but it burst during surgery so they had to clean me up and all. Really hurts.

So I haven't been able to be online much because well, it hurts to walk to the stupid computer.

It's been pretty boring though, just watching movies and whatnot. In fact I'm sort of watching Batman right now, for like the 50th time. Or the second time... same thing.

I also want to touch on some subjects that have come to mind. I guess I want to open up and admit. Feels strange.

I fear...

1. Being taken from someone I love.

2. Losing someone I love.

3. Being cheated on.

4. Spiders.

5. Vampires.

6. Disappointment.

7. Doing something wrong.

8. Having no control.

9. Being kidnapped.

10. Not eating enough. 

I love...

1. The feeling of being accomplished. 

2. The feeling of making someone proud.

3. Being loved.

4. My family.

5. Being online.

6. Long baths.

7. Aero chocolate.

8. Exercising.

9. Going out and just chatting with friends.

10. Being prepared and knowing what's going to happen.

I'd like to know...

1. How long I'll live for.

2. The cure for cancer.

3. What Bella and my dad think of me.

4. If I make them proud.

5. How long until I can have a baby.

6. How to play the piano.

7. What it's like to be married.

8. When my heart will be broken.

9. How tall I'll grow.

10. How to help lost and upset children.

I never want to...

1. Disappoint.

2. Sell myself.

3. Lose my family.

4. Lose myself.

5. Become an alcoholic.

6. Become a drug addict.

7. Hurt my children.

8. Fail in school.

9. Lose hope.

10. Feel alone.

I want to know...

1. Johnny.

2. Zacy.

3. Jane.

4. Molly.

5. Beth.

6. Jacy.

7. Zara.

8. Tar.

9. Brandon.

10. Jackie.

... forever.

I wake up knowing...

1. I'm alive.

2. Someone in the world will die today.

3. New babies will enter the world.

4. Someone will be hurt.

5. You can pay $1000 to kill a child in some places.

6. The world is corrupt. 

7. I'll never know everything.

8. I'll do my best to know as much as I can.

9. I'll learn something new.

10. I'll always love.

I want to...

1. Establish a charity.

2. Write a novel.

3. Have a child.

4. Save a life.

5. Die being a respected person.

6. Live a long time.

7. Be liked.

8. Be loved.

9. Be interesting.

10. Always have something to say.

Alright I'm done. 

R.I.P. Michael Jackson. You're being thought about.

R.I.P. Those who died while I was writing this post.

R.I.P. Everyone who deserves it.

-Eggy Mayers, wanna be writer.